Can't

 Im such

An exaustive

Person

You know the feeling of teaching when "if youre having fun, they are "

Well im feeling like nobodys having fun

 Im too broken for all of this

I will never belong I guess

And ive lost so much

 I almost dont have nothing else left to hold onto

That tells me im worth to keep goinf

Every memory is just another fail predicting and every trial is another place to  fall and nothing changes

And each time I fall is worse

 So i dont feel like I got better and im backsliding

I feel like im really close to the end

And maybe its all just ego

Attention and recognitions 

To save a soul from fleeing

Far cry from home

Would I believe in all the answers 

If they had gone in my way?

Can I believe in all the answers

If they start going my way?